forty! forty! forty! {march 29, 2016}

+ this is it!!! finally my due date has arrived

+ still no real sign of labor aside from the ordinary braxton hicks, and still no progression

+ still love loooong walks

+ and naps :)

+ we've been going out to eat a lot this week, enjoying our last moments of "just us" time.

+ we've also been frequenting the local theaters, watching daddy's home, eddie the eagle, and allegiant

+ eric is days away from finals week!!! hope he's not testing when i go in to labor...

+ i'm starting to get nervous for real, actual labor..will my body actually know what to do? will i be strong enough? will my baby survive this last stage before i finally get to meet him? how will i be able to handle the pain? will eric be able to help? will eric be able to handle me being in that much pain? when is baby boy gonna get here? who is gonna deliver me? will hilary be able to make it? etc!

+ this is such a big deal, and i feel a little bit anxious to not have any control over when/how it will happen

week 39 [march 22, 2016]

this week's appointment was tough. I thought for sure i would have progressed further by now, but still no progression from last week.

++ i am ready to POP!

+ i love to go on long walks around town while talking to my sisters. i think it helps pass the time

+ naps are also my favorite

+ i've been working on some knitting projects to bide the time: rose blanket, red "Daniel Tiger" sweater for jacob, etc. soo relaxing

+ this waiting game is killing me!!!! but it'll be worth it to have a healthy baby

quick bumpdate {38.5 weeks}

today I had my 38 week appointment with my midwife. baby boy is so ready to come!! ...or maybe i'm just ready for him to be here already..

+ my uterus is 'measuring' 37cm, which is kind of small, but how accurate is that measurement anyway..?

+ cervix is 80% effaced and 3cm dialated!

+ im trying not to get my hopes up because i could stay that way for a week++ but we are definitely getting closer!!

+ but needless to say all my bags are packed and we are ready to go when the time comes

+ car seat doesn't get here til monday so im actually kind of hoping he waits a couple more days to come

+ iron supplements give me burps that taste like rust :/ but I'm hoping they'll give me the boost I need to get through labor

thirty-eight [march 15, 2016]

+ this has been the longest week so far, and there's still 2 more weeks to go!! im hoping baby boy will come sooner than later

+ i feel huge 

+ i haven't actually gained any weight the past 3 weeks *yay!* but i feel like my insides are getting a bit more crammed

+ im craving ice like no other, so i had my midwife check iron levels just to make sure everything is ok..turns out I'm at a 7 (pretty low) :/ bring on all the red meat and iron supplements...blechh 

+ baby boy is big and strong! his once fluttery kicks are now big thuds

+ my emotions are out of control!! overall i honestly have never been happier, but there are those days when one moment im perfectly happy and ive got everything under control, and the next moment im near in tears and I can't even explain it. pregnancy can be rough

+ it's so fun to visualize our life with a new born. it'll be tough to not get much sleep, but so sweet a time is this

+ i love talking to Eric about baby boy--he gets really excited! he will be such a kind, tender father

+ we are all set for baby to get here: 

so many tiny boy clothes and blankets, toys and books and...!

+ baby boy's diaper bag is all packed, my hospital bag is {almost} packed, and we are just awaiting labor **please come soooon!**

+ i am feeling mostly mentally prepared/educated for labor, as prepared as i feel like i can be. we are almost finished with our lamaze birthing class, and i am very confident in having eric coach me through it all. i envision it as being a very hard thing, but as i just let my body do what it is designed to do it can be a very special event for eric, baby, and i

+ wish us luck!

-xoxo

thirty-six {3/01/2016}

4 weeks to go! that's less than a month! 

+ i feel huge

+ baby loves to push his foot (elbow, hand..?) right into my stomach beside my belly button..cute, but sometimes a little painful

+ i love feeling this little boy move inside me! when he is awake, he is constantly moving, especially when we go watch eric play basketball..he goes crazy! started to feel sad just thinking about not having him in there anymore, but let's be honest. i cannot wait to meet him!!!

+ baby boy is ridin so low and has been putting lots of pressure on my pelvic area. let's just say it feels like I just finished a super long bike ride on a bike that had a very small bike seat..ouch! luckily ice and a pregnancy belly band relieve enough of the pain so I can still do stuff

+ speaking of doing stuff, i keep having relatively productive mornings, making me think i'm in my "nesting" stage (usually extreme the day before you go into labor), only to be completely exhausted by the afternoon. at least my house is getting clean, albeit slowly, but cleaner nonetheless

+ i've been having more frequent braxton hicks but not anything unmanageable yet

+ the diaper bag is packed for the hospital, and i can't stop thinking about packing my bag, but i definitely feel like it's a little early for that..maybe in a couple weeks, just in case baby boy decides to come a little early

+ i live in big tees and leggings 98% of the time. i put jeans on if we go out or something, but leggings are definitely my #1 pant these days

+did i mention i'm getting excited to meet this tiny human??

+ got the co-sleeper painted and started on the  diaper changing table/shelf. his room is closer to completion

34.5 weeks

+ had a baby appt on thursday. baby is a head-down, LOW rider. i can definitely feel it, as the pressure on my bladder is pretty intense

+ baby (uterus) is measuring 36cm. big growth spurt since last appointment

+ hoping baby comes earlier than the estimated one week past due date for a first time pregnancy. all my mom's babies came a week or 2 early, so maybe *fingers crossed* i inherited that trait...i can dream, right? 

+ baby is kicking all the time! my stomach tightens (contracts) much more frequently, and it seems like everything is loosening up, just preparing for labor..it'll be here before we know it

+ i officially can't sleep at night anymore, no matter how many pillows i have! i either get too hot, my bump isn't getting supported enough, i have to pee, baby is kicking too strong, or i'm just flat out uncomfy. funny how our bodies seem to just begin preparing themselves for the many sleepless nights to come once baby arrives

+ we finally finished our little co-sleeper! yes, it's homemade, but it'll definitely do the trick

+ snapchat has some awesome filters right now, like this one that makes your eyes huge. hailey says this is what our baby will look like: red hair and big "heidi eyes" 

+ went to caldwell, id last weekend without eric for what was going to be a girls weekend, but hz ended up staying home and tim n anni came! sad, but happy :) it was really fun to visit some of my peoples and make a weekend out of it

+ made some bomb gf bbq chicken pizza for my valentine 

+ my belly is getting bigger FAST, making everyday tasks a little trickier. luckily no heartburn, waddling, or discomfort breathing, yet...althoughim sure those symptoms are well on their way!

+ morning sickness came back to haunt me today. luckily no puking, but it was close! we went for a walk at the smith park and then went to visit grandpa, and it took all of me to not let it all out before we got to the park. i think the cool outdoor breeze definitely 

the happenings

where to begin? 

we went to utah this weekend! we stayed one night at hilary's, visited some solid friends in provo, and had a family dinner with all the utah family that evening. we stayed the next night at tim n anni's, hung out with anni and jacob in the morning, went to the provo city center temple open house (most beautifully restored interior) and out to lunch with hannah, 

and then went back to hang out with tim, anni and jacob before the Jazz game. 

went to my first nba game..ever! to say im obsessed with the Jazz would be an understatement. it was so cool to get to see them get that big 'w' against the bulls, in overtime!

 then we drove the 3+ hour drive back to rexburg. what a fun quick getaway that was! now we are back to real life, just trying to stay warm in the depths of winter

baby update: 33 weeks

+ i decided to drop all my (2) floral classes. they were a little much, and all the busyness of the semester was scheduled for the end of the semester, when little mister is due to make his grand debut! so I decided to stick with our once-a-week religion class and take it easy while we wait until baby comes

+ we are officially less than 2 months away from baby's estimated arrival! i cannot wait to meet him

+ i get really nervous when i go to baby appointments(well any doctors appt, really) and when it's time to weight in and check blood pressure, my BP skyrockets. but literally 2 minutes later it'll be back down to normal

+ my last appt BP was 144/92 in the first arm so my midwife wanted me to come back in on monday for another BP check and further testing. nurse let me just sit and breath for 2.5 before she checked my BP and I came in at 122/84--normal.  doctors office nervosa is a real thing!!!

+ had my first real braxton hicks contractions yesterday. it was just 2 crampings, about 45mins apart, and lasted about 2 mins each. it's so cool our bodies are built to grow and birth real human beings! such a miracle

+ baby boy is moving like crazy. they say he is at peak movement, as he will soon be too big to be able to move around much

+ this week i've been craving popcorn, salmon, and sushi. thanks to grandpa I got my popcorn fix. maybe my valentine will take me out for some lovely sushi..